*Sigh...*

Sometimes, I really wish this life wasn't so hard. However, that's not reality. There are times when I am utterly and completely content with what God has given me, right in that moment; but, there are other moments when I stray from His plans, and lose track of what really matters. Those are the times when I feel lonely, and melancholy.

Everything that has been going on is all so distracting! Money, grades, work, friends, and mixed up emotions! And every time I seem to be at a good place with God, one of those distractions pop up! I know that God is there to listen when I need someone to talk to, when I need to confess my mistakes, to take the burden from me, but I'm finding it hard to do so. Why is it so hard to go to my knees and pray to my Father! Why do I want things that can't provide for me like He can?

Abba, Father! Help me!

Dare to Reach

Hands lifted, reaching for You,
releasing all my fear and doubt.
I'm falling down before You
and as my knees hit the floor,
all this confusion falls away.

The dark ones I once feared
are now cowering in a corner.
They thrash their teeth in a desperate attempt
to make me stumble,
but I can taste their fear.

There on my knees, my head bowed low,
I am strengthened by Your light.
There's nothing they can do now-
nowhere they can hide.
This battle has begun.

As each of us gathers,
His army grows stronger.
Our voices blend into one
as the trumpets sound the charge.
His light is our armor, and prayer our sword.

"Dare to reach out your hand into the darkness, to pull another hand into the light."
~Norman B. Rice

Dead Man

Oh, Save me Lord!
I'm bleeding from the inside,
My body racked with pain, but
I'm just a dead man.

The heat of my aversion
Spills onto the floor
And leaves me there insensate
Lying on the carpet.

A lifeless lump I lay there,
My ardor a cold and chordate lump.
That tumor's left inside, and I
Can't find a heartbeat

Please let Your message fill my lungs
With words as soft as zephyrs.
Only the sound of Your voice can
Make me breathe.

No more will I lay there
Just the same as before.
Fashion me, a new creation,
I want to be a new man!

This rough and dirty pile of clay
Sits there distorted and ashamed.
I'm ready for your muse, cause I'm
Tired of the old one.

My aim has been self-serving,
Futile aspirations lead me here.
You know what You are doing, so
Out with the old plan!

My Real Home

I cut it off and shut the door;
didn't want to feel any more.
The feelings left, and hope had died,
But there was still a spark inside.

I looked around and felt alone;
dreams, like corpses, dead and gone.
The future far, and out of reach,
but You had something left to teach.

There was a greater love to know;
it filled me with a comfy glow.
And then I realized Your plan
to not be loved by just a man.

Your arms reached out and circled me;
I knew I was where I should be.
By Your embrace, You let me know:
No matter where I am, You're home.

Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace,

How Sweet the Sound...

For a day in your courts is better than a thousand. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness. The Lord will give grace and glory; No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly. O Lord of hosts, blessed is the man who trusts in You! Ps. 84:10-12

God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping

God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking

Be my everything

God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting

God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything

~ Tim Hughes

My Amazingly Vampire Weekend (so far)

This Friday night was absolutely amazing! It started out with a road trip to Portland to see a Vampire Weekend concert with some friends. One girl with us came to see if she could buy a ticket at the venue. This is where all the fun begins! Long story short, we used the wrong directions and ended up parking somewhere with a cheep price. However, we had no clue where we were! So we ended up asking these two girls on bicycles with carts if they knew where the Crystal Ballroom was. (that was our venue)

They told us that the Crystal Ballroom was 2 blocks over and 10 blocks up! There was no way we were going to get there in time, but then... The girls told us they were a taxi service and that they would take us there! So we rode in bicycle taxis for 12 blocks and got there in time for the concert! It was absolutely amazing! By chance, we just happened to meet someone who could get us there even faster than we could!

So when we finally got there, all the tickets were sold out! Our friend had no place to go and we didn't just want to leave her there! We had no idea what to do! So one of the bouncers let her in for free and said that it was his random act of kindness for the day! What an amazing thing to do! So she got in for free and we went up!

Once we got up to the stage, we only had to wait 15 min. for the concert to start. After the opening bands were done Vampire Weekend took the stage! AAAAHHHHHH! It was amazing!

In case you didn't know who these guys are... They're a band from NY and they aren't very well known yet, but they are amazing!

Their concert was full of energy! The concert was sooooo good, I can't decide if their concert, or album is better! They played up on stage for so long that they played every song that they've ever recorded!


We all had sooooo much fun it still makes me all excited just thinking about the night we had! It was amazing to see God at work in our night too! All the people He put in our path that were able to help us, it just amazes me! God protected us and guided us even while going to a concert! What a wonderful God I have!